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    So the pin is comming out Tuesday!!! Yippie it is such good news because that pin drives me insane it is always hurting...So Im happy about that one. I had a nice Friday I brought Natalie out to eat for her 23rd b-day just to friendlys but it was yummy!!! Saturday I went over the in-laws it was nice watched a few movies on the Hallmark Channel The Good Witch and The Good Witches Garden Both really good!!!! Also had dinner and popcorn there too!
    Today went to my parents house had Lunch, Cheesecake and plenty of snakes! It was nice we watched the History Channel pretty much the whole time watching the Monster hunter show. Nothing else is really going on too much. Andy is in bed sleeping because well he has work in the morning. Daisy also had a lovely time at my parents house she really loves going there.
   So Im bored and Im awake with nothing too do. Most of the animals are all in the room with me..Well actually all but Daisy she has to stay in the kitchen till she is trained but she does get to run around the apartment when Im watching her cant have her go on the hardwood floors you know. So....I hope everyone has a great day!

Okay so since the last time I was on here was years ago...I forgot about this when myspace and facebook came in to play.. Well now neither of those can be private for me without my mother in law seeing everything so here I am...I got married on April 19th, 2008 to Andrew...I can't believe it actually happened but it did. Im very happy where my life well should I say our lives is headed. It has been a rough first year of marriage due to my right wrist being hurt... It happened in June and then I have been out of work Since July 29th.....Surgery was on Dec 10th a pin and a couple screws put in...
So let's see I live in an apartment with my 3 dogs and 2 cats yup a house full!!! They make me happy!
      Andrew and I want to start a family and have been trying since we got married back in April but it hasn't happened for us yet. I guess when God wants us to have kids we will. It still makes me a bit said though because there is nothing more I want then to be a mother. Andrew wants to be a father bad too we talk about it a lot. I know my parents will be thrilled when it happens but I know Janice doesnt want grandchildren now or anytime soon.
      So I went back and I was reading post I had written so long ago and some of them made me giggle back then it was how Andrew and I talked to one another..LOL Silly I know. So I guess what I learned is good things happen to those who wait. Andrew and I will be together for 5 years on July 10th! So I guess with all the ups and downs we had everything worked out for us. It's odd how much one can grow in a matter of years. Life does change us. Im finally at a place in my life where I am truly happy with who I have become.
   So in december my friend's father died it was so hard too see that happen to her. I felt so bad and still do. I know andrew misses him because he knew him for a long time. So I think everyone took it very hard, Well when that happened it brought up again my grandmother when she passed. It's odd how old wonds never seem  to go away they always seem to leave that scar on you. Im very happy though a couple years back I got a tattoo of a little bird with a Halo just for her on my Ankle. Then I got a tattoo just for me after Andrew and I got married of a green dragonfly landing on a pink daisy.. My fav flower and colors. The dragonfly means strenght so it reminds me to always keep fighting for what I want.
    So life living away from my parents.....At first it was odd not comming home well to old home. When I would go over my parents house I would feel sad and I would miss living there. I didn't realize how hard it was going to be, but now this is my home and it feels like my home and I love it. Now when I go to my parents Im happy to go anf visit. It's nice having our own place. I guess that was a plus about getting married. Not only did I get my own place but I get to see my best friend every day!!!!! It's great!
Well I suppose Im running out of things to say...
Im seeing Katy Perry April 1st, 2009 that should be fun...
Oh and for my b-day last year Andy brought me to see New Kids on the Block!! <3

Well for the past week things with me and andy have been very rocky and I dont know what is going on it seems like he is always mad at me and we just keep fighting it sucks because I love him so much and it's almost been two years less then a month away but then he goes so have u picked out a date for us to get married just after he sounded like he was so pissed at me he just keeps confusing me like the song says love is a battlefield!lol 
laters

Hey everyone my cat had 7 kittens last night!!!They are so cute!!! 3 black and white ones, 3 orange ones and 1 calico!!! arent they cute!!!!!!!!!!! Anyways I have work soon!!!! lol yay work well no boo work but anyways I love andy and I cant wait to marry him!!!

I love andrew he means the world too me he is my life. I love andy woot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A kiss for me I love you 2! Im a dork!

Hello everyone!!! Andrew asked me to marry him again on last saturday it was so cute!!! Ive made someone feel sad! I love Will & Grace it's my fav show!!! Anyways I love my andy so much! I work at south side grille and I love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyways I like my job.

hey all havent on it forever! how are u all??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

My feet hurt and Im sleepy!


Listen To Your Heart lyrics
I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

And there are voices
that want to be heard.
So much to mention
but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Listen to your heart, mm-mmmmmm

I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

My feet hurt so bad there is not even A word to discribe it. I go home tomorrow yippie skippie!!!! I get to see andy and my family which should be good! my feet hurt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh wells just thought you would like to know well lata

My feet hurt blah. I got up at 5:30am to be there for 6am and well I was there till 3pm what a long day. It was ok though. Andrew called me it was good talking to him. So anyways Im alright talked to a couple people I havent talked to since last year which was cool. Im not to sure what is going on in my head right now Im all conpuzzled. My whole body wants go to bed Im tired and Im all in pain not used to long hours on my feet the whole time and I do mean the whole time thats what a cook does no sitting involed it sucks. Anyways Im working on 4 or so hours of sleep yup a ton right I know I know a whole bunch and Im not tired to even go to bed. Anyways I hope you all are good!!! andy I love you and good luck with the whole job thingy. Im going home friday!!

love ya

jess

Well I found out today I will be working at hospitality dinning hall from 6am till 2:30pm on mondays-thurday and 7am to 3:30pm on fridays and well I have another job on top of this Im so screwed!!! I hope I can oome home on the weekends looks like at least right now I will be able to but I just have to see about the other place I will have to be going to so I guess only time shall tell where Im going to end up on the weekends Im hoping home and Im hoping so I can see andy because well I already miss him so much an dI know he mises me alot already but Im just getting sad about this whole college thing it seems like it is so going to suck like last year maybe even worse but the roomate seems much nicer then last year I dont know Im going to go got to get up at 5am or so lata

Hey all I love my ring andy bought me woo woo!!! Oh yesterday I got a kitten her name is patches and she is so cute!!! Oh mY b=day party is going to be august 20th at 2pm so if anyone wants to come call me on my cell 978 424 7842! Oh I go back to college sept 5th! I got a $200 Coach bag from parents and $525.00 from my granpa so far for my b-day! My kitten is for my b-day too! I'm going to be 20 so yah for me!

Im at MWcc right now sitting next to Andrew i know oh what fun! Well anyways life is good with us which is always a good thing to know right! Well School is ok I cant find a job which well is not a good thing at all. i go back sept 5'th the cell is 978 424 7842 call me!!!!

lol hey what can I say??? anyways life is good finals at 10:30am woo hoo lol well not really anyways! I love you Andrew!!!! Anyways home may 19th!!!!!!!!!

I had such a wondeful time hanging out with andrew on saturday! I really did thats all I have to say I love you andy and oh yea Im coming home for the summer on MaY 19TH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!y ay

Could you whisper in my ear
The things you want to feel
I’ll give you anything
To feel it comin’
Do you wake up on your own
And wonder where you are
You live with all your faults

Chorus:
I wanna wake up where you are
I won’t say anything at all
So why don’t you slide

Yeah we’re gonna let it slide

Don’t you love the life you killed
The priest is on the phone
Your father hit the wall
Your ma disowned you

Don’t suppose I’ll ever know
What it means to be a man
Something I can’t change
I’ll live around it

Chorus

And I’ll do anything you ever
Dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that fall
Oh,may put your arms around me
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
Oh,may do you wanna get married
Or run away

Chorus

Well Andy got a job and he starts tomorrow the only thing is now I wont be able to really talk to him. He is working from 3pm to 12am so wow. But o well I love him and god do I hope I see him on saturday please let me see him on saturday otherwise Ill be sad. O wells I love him anyways and he does mean a lot to me and hey he is trying to make money which is a good thing so Im very proud of him though!!!! I love my baby so much just hope I see him over the weekend though because I do miss him but either way Ill prob see him at least a couple of hours right??? But im happy for him though he did a good thing and he did get a job so yay!!!! Or hmmm.... Im not sure??? O well lata

Well I just found out that Andy Failed MCAS again. What am I suppose to do Im not allowed to marry him until he passes this test so now Im fucked again. I mean come on this makes things so hard I hoped he would pass this time. All I did was hope he would pass it and he didnt. I want nothing more to be with him but it's like how can I marry someone who cant even get his high school dipolma. I just wish he would have got it by now. AHHh it makes my life so hard. Im thinking he is never going to pass it why doesnt he just bring it to court. The problem is this makes me look bad with my family because I want to get married to someone who cant even Pass math Mcas. I hate that fucking test it's so fucking stupid. I love him so much and this sucks so bad and I dont know what Im suppose to do I mean I want to stay with him but this makes things so hard for me now. I thought hey he would pass and we would get all of this over with and we wouldnt have to worry about anything any more. I don't think he'll ever pass this test and I just wish he could. PLEASE!!!! I know he tried on it but, I just dont understand why it is so hard for him to pass it. I mean I even tried to help him with it a little bit. Why is it that I love him with all of my heart but this one stupid thing is going to stop me from being with him. Baby I love you so much and I want to be with you I really do but Im not going to be allowed to marry you and you know that. I want to be with you more then anything but baby this is the one thing stopping us.
I thought things were going to be ok but how am I suppose to tell my parents. How I cant.......I dont know Im so confused!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHH How is it that I want to be with someone as much as I do but yet it seems as if it is so close to havng but I cant grab it!!! Andy I love you I just dont know what Im suppose to do please talk to me!!!! Help!!!!! ANYone help have ideas?????????